Re-

I don’t really have any new thoughts to share today. If I’m being honest, it seems like I rarely do. It’s all recycled, reworded, and repackaged ideas. I feel it every time I sit down to write. It’s me listening to my heart, keeping what’s important at the center.

I’ve had a great day. I’m with my treasure- feeling balanced, happy, and present. There was a moment today when I wanted to get something done, but, of course, Thea had other plans for me. Pestering me to play and pay attention to her, not giving me more than 15 seconds to think without interruption. I felt myself getting flustered and my ugly rage popping up. Then I remembered my previous posts, Surrender and Ands & Expectations, written over 6 months ago but still just as true. Does fighting this brings a greater reward than surrendering? In the grand scheme, what’s more important? What aligns more with who I want to be?

Thus, I sat down and made the marble run. A couple hours later, the scene repeated. I closed the laptop and made the silly crafts. And guess what? I had fun. Giving into that moment brought me more joy and stress relief than trying to do 3 things at once. Guess what else? I still managed to handle all that was irking me.

I want to focus back in on how lucky I am that I get to. I get to be the one to play with my kids, watching them grow and learn every day. I get to make this house a home that serves us in all the ways we need. I get to take care of and create space for myself, doing yoga, reading, and writing. I get to do everything I want and dream of because I am in control. I get to live this incredibly beautiful life.

So, I will continue to reuse, restate, and rehash all these ideas because I am nothing more than my small habits. Each tiny thing I chose represents who I am. These words, despite how repetitive they’ve become, are changing me. They are changing everything around me.

Today, I’m remembering to surrender.